Archive for November, 2007



Blind Melon Soup

I’m listening to Blind Melon’s cd Soup. It’s sick.

I first heard Soup from my buddy Twitchie. I really liked Galaxie first, I just thought it was an amazing song, and the horn intro is just plain ridiculous. No horn into on the vid.

The unsung gem of this CD is Vernie, the 3rd song. It’s not on youtube, or any other place, but it’s amazing as well.

Lady T’s favorite song on Soup is Skinned. Skinned is a good song, but not my favorite. The kazoo is ridic as well.

And for the all-time, most savage song on Blind Melon’s Soup, please check out Toes Across the Floor. For me, this song is the most powerful, going from a slow, almost jolting and gangly verse, to a shout/scream chorus, that then switches to become the whole rest of the song. It’s like they start with this one thing as the verse, go to chorus, back to verse, then chorus the rest of the way out, with a nasty little jam as the bridge.

By the end of the song, when you kinda realize that the chorus is actually where he’s bringing the pain, it brings me to the floor, and then they take you away in a nice, easy blanket to go to sleep. This song is a priceless gem of amazing rock artistry, and I will carry it to my grave inside my dome-piece.

Blind Melon Blind Melon was one of the first CDs I ever got. I bought it again when I went to college, and even ended up stealing Dank’s copy as well.

Thanks to everybody who shows me cool new music to listen to.

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Pussy anyone?

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Post Script, Still NS

Just a click away, and I’m at the NY Times, reading about Suffering, Evil and the Existence of God.

At least I’m not the only one wracking my brain on an impossible human phenomenon. 

Ah, why should all mankind
For one man’s fault be condemned? 

But from me what can proceed,
But all corrupt, both Mind and Will depraved?

One of the main themes I always bullshit about is the fact that human beings, as a species, are fucked. We are fucked because we are fucked, and that’s all there really is to it. Wringing your hands about it, and bitching and moaning at the sky whilst clutching your stomach, that’s all about what it means to be human.

In some sick fucked up universal joke on us, we can feel and understand things, but only to a certain degree. Every once in a while, someone is born with a superior brain structure or chemistry or whatever, and they can try to explain things to other people, to share knowledge through crude symbols and abstract reasoning. It all falls miserably short of the “All Encompassing God Strength Aloe Vera for Your Soul.” I mean, that’s what we all want, anyway, a big fucking vat of green aloe vera gel, so you can jump your whole body and soul into it, and just get cooled off, squishy and smell kind of minty.

Anyway, another interesting quote from that article is,

These are the questions as old as Epicurus, who gave them canonical form: ‘Is God willing to prevent evil but not able? Then he is impotent. Is he able but not willing? Then he is malovelent. Is he both able and willing? Whence, then, evil.’

 I am bored at work.

Not Stoned

The urge is there, like an itch that won’t go away. Sometimes, I can squeeze my eyes and my head tight enough to block it all out, but then it just feels so good to bleed it out. And that’s what it is really, just bleeding, a letting go of things. It pours out of me, and with each word, I feel better and more free, a ray of light through the room. 

And if this is me, this riddle of hypocrisy and fake cynicism, why should I deny myself? I shouldn’t, and the answer becomes more and more clear with each turn into myself. To deny myself is to deny myself, and to do so for no reason is an exercise in self-hatred and stupidity. And why should I hate myself? I shouldn’t, because I am. 

Just like that, I have said nothing, but the world has turned, and everything has changed. 

A part of me wants to get into it, to dig into what I am feeling and what is going on in my life, but another part tells me that doing so is unnecessary and somewhat harmful. 

In the name of decency and humility, however, I will focus on what is important. What is important? To me, the most important thing on my mind, at this instant, are the changing faces in the flowing river, from the book Siddhartha. Trite, we might say, but what the fuck. In the end, someone has already experienced the same things that we each experience everyday, in a broader archetypical sort of way. The changing faces in the river are merely different manifestations of the human existence, ie, we are all the same. 

I haven’t read it yet, but I just found out about the Dark Tower “series” by Stephen King. Stephen King is loved and reviled, but in the end, his voice is undeniable. In many ways, his ability to create new stories and worlds, seemingly effortlessly, points to the timelessness of the human experience. It’s like he’s an open channel, a vessel by which the human experience can be shared and spread through our world. I’ve read other places, that people who are “on the level” don’t think of it as an effort or as a chore. In fact, the process of their creation becomes very passive, and the other worlds come through on their own, and the human being “doing the work” is nothing but a vehicle to share experiences through. 

Who hasn’t read Slaughterhouse 5? When I first read it, only 2 years ago, my mind was literally blown away. There were moments when I was reading, when everything in the world stopped, and I believed that Kurt Vonnegut was capable of time travel, and that there were different dimensions of the universe, and aliens that looked like plungers took him and a movie star to a different planet to be in the human zoo. I read it twice in a row, back to back, in about 2 days. After I read it, I didn’t think about it anymore, but to this day, I feel something real and tangible in that ridiculous story. 

And that, little kids, is what I’m talking about. Something is real out there, something larger than all of us, not a baby Jesus either. Billions and billions of people have lived and died before us, and we walk around on the dust of their bones, and go to work in buildings that were built by other people, who also had families and moms and dads. 

I take comfort in knowing that other people have felt that same exact way that I do, and many more have felt much more. Going to see a “head doctor” also helps to ground you by giving you stories of other people who have gone through the same thing. I’m not the only one feeling like this, this is not the first time that has happened in the history of the world. “I am not alone,” can be a comforting thought, but that thought doesn’t change what happens next, when the shit hits the fan, or the shoe drops. In the end, each person is totally alone, and each person must face death by himself, the end of the line. Mommy will not be there to hold your hand, and neither will your wife, or your dog. 

At the end of the line, each person dies alone, and joins the growing list of dead motherfuckers. Were you good or bad? Does it matter? I don’t know, but what I do know, is that other people have gone before, and that other people will follow. 

Death escapes no one, just as life does. Just as each person popped out of their mom’s vagina, each person jumps off the deep end when they die. A universe is a universe is a universe.

Stoney Signals

Despite what you may be not reading, the Stoney Signal (SS) is alive and well, kinda like when the Nazi SS went to Argentina. But seriously, the Stoney Signal has been beeping and shit on the radar, but I have gone underground to facilitate my next move.

This week was all resumes and bullshit. Got an interview this afternoon, and hopefully, none more to come.

Anyway, I feel like my era of StoneyWageSlave is coming to a close. After pissing off my parents so badly, I kinda started to feel like I was doing something for the wrong reason. In that, I started this blog as a fuck-off, a thing to do at work when I was bored, and to just basically talk shit to my friends. Now, the blog is lost, aimless, and as worthless as it was on the day I started it.

It was a nice bonus to have so many people reading the site at one time, when I knew I could just write whatever gay bullshit I wanted, and have a bunch of people read it, or at least click on the page. It felt pretty good.

And now, with nobody reading, and no other Stoney helping to keep up the fight, it makes me feel like “What’s the point?”

All of my main issues have been covered, and covered thoroughly. I believe everybody should be smoking weed, or at least consider it, because it has helped to open up my mind and consciousness to understand things I didn’t know existed. And if you’re not about the weedage, that’s fine too. Just for me personally, I have found it to be a wonderful and enjoyable plant to use daily.

I also believe fully in the art of slacking. I also believe in any of the other bullshit that I said, like the Boston Red Sox are gay, Pete Doherty is an excessively savage badass, and a ton of other things.

For now, over and out, bitches. In the words of a famous professional wrestler, if you didn’t know, you better ask somebody.

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